Locus of Control.

At the Vees game today, the referees missed multiple penalty calls. Would that be a more fair game? For sure. Would that have changed how the game was played and the end result? I don’t know.

Is it worth the mental resources to blame the game and results on the poor reffing? I would say not. There are many unfairness in sports, environmental barriers, sportsmanship of the participants, etc. It is part of the game. We have to deal with it and grind it out, find a way for that W. It is what makes such a thing called sports performance.

Just finishing the leadership course, it is all about locus of control. Internal and be able to reflect and adapt, or external and blame it on luck or uncontrollable forces. As a person who enjoy sport for what sport is, and my general character, I always choose the internal locus of control. That’s where the attraction of sport is, developing and implementing different strategies to produce amazing performances and unpredictable results. We don’t learn or become better people by blaming it on the environment or envying the opponent’s performance, we only become better if we work on ourselves.

Becoming a Pro.

This time of the year is always interesting. My Pocket app would recommend stories all relating to acceptances into Ivy League schools. I just read two application essays, both of which received offers to multiple Ivy League schools.

The successful application essay is a narrative story of a life experience. Between the lines, implicitly, it shows their character and their innate potential. There’s no outlining their goals, their dream and vision, what traits or skills they possess, experiences they would like to be noticed. It’s more powerful and less hard-selling. Hardselling and outlining is the majority of applications for work and school.

Another article I read today is the 7 differences between amateurs and professionals on Medium. I see resonance, and how these individuals can become a pro. As for myself, I see myself doing both, but they’re really opposing practices. It’s a process to go from amateur to pro, but it’s definitely a different mindset also.

On that note, time to work hard. Stop talking and just walk the walk. I’ll become a pro one day.

Amazon leadership.

Thank you to Jeff Bezos for your letter. Perhaps it’s always been the Amazon Way all along, but communicated to the general public, I learned something new.

1) Day 1 concept. I know it’s the best concept and attitude to take on, but sometimes, the relief day 2 is more comfortable is such a nice thought. Day 2 is not acceptable, no comfy days ahead…
2) 70% info. I’m known to research things out and do my homework before taking action. It has proven me well such as my recent savings of $1250, but I don’t deny it has delayed some decisions. Instead of my current 90% comfort zone, I need to speed the process and act at 70%.
3) Disagree and commit. I’m not afraid of confrontation and speaking my mind when needed, as ideas need to be tested from different perspectives. I generally let the project continue along, as long as the other party has done their due diligence and is still convinced on their argument. I don’t know if I’ve shown that part of support well after the initial disagreement. Or maybe I need to not just accept and allow to continue, but commit and engage.

110%…or the real 100%

I love sports to life analogies.

Today at badminton, inspired by watching the Malaysian Open Finals live the previous night, there was a doubles game where we were down 2-11 at one point. I was getting frustrated at my partner but I just didn’t want to toss the game. I started playing a completely different style, one I haven’t used since my high school years. No more of the fancy placement shots, letting my partner learn, just get it done, my way. It was nice I still had it in me, because I haven’t practiced it for so long and my personality has tamed or flattened a lot. We caught up and won 22-20. Played a full match of singles afterward​, in my new mindset, I smashed more in a game than I usually do in a full 3 set. It’s not that I have an ineffective smash or try to save energy usually, but just never brought it out to use and resort to other options. Today, I pulled it back out from the treasure chest and it was great. Things were so much easier!

Not to take the great feeling away from myself, it’s time for reflection. Is this the whole LinDan thing where he plays hard during circuit tournaments but explodes during the grand slam? Or McDavid with his fast and super fast skating speeds? There’s that other level…is that the 110% super performance or is that a usual 80% and 100% when it matters?

Does this apply to life? School, I definitely resort to it around finals time. My catch up list and exam results show that objectively. Work, I don’t know. I don’t think I’m at the 100 or 110%, but I can’t tell if it’s my ego or feedback that’s telling me that. At the same time, I feel now is probably a good time to be at that 100 or 110%, but I just don’t even know how to kick into that gear or what that even looks like.