Some scheduling issues triggered a mini self-reflection session today. On one hand, I’m tolerating a lot of shift changes to fit personal schedules without asking, even if the reason is not our norm. The consequence of it is overworking myself and building up negative energy. On the other hand, there’s work to be done but I’m not really contributing to it but just letting it be delegated and someone take care of it. So it’s like I’m not being productive and just slacking off. It’s almost bipolar.
It’s time for me to figure out what kind of manager I want to be, and finding that balance is part of the process to reaching my goal. I want to be down to earth; I don’t want to come up with ideas in a removed context, delegate and expect results. I want to fair; I don’t want to get all the good shifts that work for my schedule and reap in all the benefits. I want to lead by example; I want to work harder than anyone on the team to reach that common goal we set together. I want conviction, not authority. Some number of years ago, I remember saying the single most characteristic of a successful leader is your team buys in on your vision. Wow, I really don’t change much.
This is my first actual management project/experience. Everything before this, was me coming up with an idea and delegating it back to myself. This is a process and it’s going to take time, as we all slowly learn and evolve. Thank you for the opportunity and the patience.